Words I Never Said.

themeghansmith:

chrissyisabear:

am i the only one who is self conscious about my windshield wiper speed when it’s raining. like i gotta watch other cars to make sure im not being too dramatic

Same

(via justbrosthings)

just-shower-thoughts:

Patriotism is not about loving your country blindly. It is about accepting its flaws and solving them little by little

Jammed packed weekend.  Going to dinner with my dad Friday night, Anne also is coming in so I will go to her house after for Shabbat dinner, then meet her and her parents Saturday for lunch (I’ll probably go to the gym and/or clean my apt before), then I will take her to my place, probably do some adult activities, then stay home and do dinner at home, Netflix and chill, etc.  Sunday we going to brunch with my mom and her fiancee, and then Anne drives back to Orlando.  The weekend is going to fly by, but it will be quality time.  I cannot wait.  

i will probably marry this girl. 

Life is absolutely magical

Feel like a fairytale falling in love with your best friend. Never want this story to end

It is a magical feeling dating your best friend.  There is never a dull moment, we already trust and support each other to the fullest, and it all comes so naturally to us.  We are our unfiltered selves together.  In my most recent relationship, I tried to be who I thought my ex wanted me to be.  I wasn’t proud of her because she made me feel awful about myself.  I was miserable, so I had to get out.  Totally different with this one, she is such an ego boost and I cannot stop showing her off.  Now, I am bringing out stuff that I thought was dead and gone, but were just hibernating because I concealed them for so long.  Dating your best friend allows both of you to explore your unfiltered selves.  There are things I do/say with/to her that nobody else will ever see, and I know I’ve she does the same with me.  Shit, I am finding plenty of stuff I didn’t know about myself, whether it be sexually, emotionally, etc.  I don’t feel the pressure with her and while we do text constantly, i don’t obsess over it.  Not in a bad way, I am totally head over heels for her, and any time my mind wanders it goes to her, it is because I am so confident and trusting in our relationship that I don’t feel the need to obsess over every little word, or why is she taking so long to respond, etc.  We don’t have to deal with the feeling out process, our deep history allows everything to be so seamless and natural.  Almost from the minute we reconnected, and ESPECIALLY after I apologized, there seemed to be something there.  Felt more than our friendship in HS.  Regardless of where this relationship goes, the best decision I ever made was to go in for that first kiss.           

Best friends could still be polar opposite from one another, not the case with us.  It is freaky how similar we are.  There are things she says/does that I’m just like wow, that is EXACTLY how I would have said/done it.  To save time, and avoid carpal tunnel, I will not list the endless similarities, but I’m pretty sure when we were made God couldn’t decide whether to make a male or female so s/he was just like “fuck it i’ll make one of each.” The most important thing though, which I have a very hard time getting through to anybody, is we both NEED our time and space to decompress.  The best part is, we don’t need to tell each other, we can sense when the other needs that time, and it is totally cool with us.  Also, one of the few girls I’ve met that can match me with cursing, but also make it sound classy.  Most chicks don’t curse (even worse when they apologize when they do), or if they do most of them sound trashy.

Doesn’t hurt that I have always thought she is one of the prettiest girls I have ever met, and she has only improved with age.  There is a way she carries herself that is so sexy, like bitch I know I look hot.  To borrow from John Mayer, her body is a fucking Wonderland and I can easily spend days at a time exploring it.  Her smile just melts me, her hands and fingers are just so cute and adorable, the butt chin.  Lol her nose gets so fucking red from my scruff.  I get lost in her eyes, same color as mine, but she pulls it off waaaay better.  Could do without the hair *wink*.  The best part of her though, is the way she carries herself.  She’s unapologetic for who she is and 100% confident in her own skin, and its projecting onto me.  I struggled for a long time with my total image, I was improving some before we reconnected, especially with my body, but she has kicked it into overdrive.  My confidence and ego are at an all-time high because of her.

This girl is rocking my world, and I cannot help but laugh to think about the path we took to get here.  Before this year, I never thought I would even talk to her again.  Heck, even when I did send that message in January(?) I didn’t think she would answer.  Why would she? She ignored every other message I sent the last 6 years.  Can’t say that I blame her, but that is the most remarkable thing about her.  She was willing to forgive and, most importantly, willing to listen and understand what I was going through.  I appreciate her more than I could ever put into words, mainly because I did lose her.  I had taken her for granted.  But you can bet your fucking house I will not lose her again.  She is the best gf, but an even better friend.  

Can’t fucking wait to see her next week.  

NMG